Wednesday 19 October 2011

Tiada tajuk.

Saya terlalu sedih dan rasa mahu menangis pada bila bila masa sahaja. Hati saya sakit. Pedih. Kenapa?

Monday 10 October 2011

Its our 3rd year.

Dear Cinta,
10 oct 2011 - Its our 3rd anniversary. I still in love with you like i did 3 years ago. And maybe more! I know you doesn't even remember or know that this meaningful date were actually exist. But I don't mind. I know boys never really care bout dates and memories. 

10 oct 2008 - 3 years ago we met. That was the first time i lay my eyes on you after almost 4 months of long distance relationship. We only know each other through YM, and I only know how you look like from that one and only picture that you put on your display image. Funny, I always wanted a good looking guy, tall and smart. But when I get to know you, I don't even think about how you look like. All I know and care is that, you make me fall for you, for who you are. And not how you look like.

10 oct 2009 - We broke up cos you're suddenly felt that you're not ready to be in a relationship. And couldn't give 100% commitment. I was upset and I blame myself for being to pushy. Maybe thats the reason why you broke up with me. Because i was desperate for your attention. That day, you decide to remain as friends. And get to know each other as friend. Well I'm glad you did. At least, I didn't loose you at all. And you will still be a part of my life. 

10 oct 2010 -  By this time, i was with someone else. But it didn't took much time for me to realize that i were still in love with you. All i ever do is to get your attention. I hang out with your friends just to feel close to you. Seems desperate much? Well I dont care. I'm just too afraid to lose you and moreover to see you happy with someone else, other than me. I just can't take it. So i keep on seeking for chances to be with you again. And keep seeking.... 

2011 has been a great year for me, and for us. We made up. :) Ever since i got into the excident, you had been really nice to me. Always checking me up to see if I'm okay or if i need anything. We hang out a lot. I feel loved again. My heart start pounding every time i receives msgs from you, every time I got you near me, and every time your arms around me. 

Happy 3rd year anniversary my dear. Maybe we're not unite as lovers now. But I will keep on loving you. I can do this for another 30 years to come. I'll not give up, and will keep on trying and loving until you realize how much i care, how much i love and how much u mean to me.. I LOVE YOU.